Realization is at least better late than never. Yes, I am not aware of realizing whether I have ever been in Love or under meditation. But came to realize slowly that both enter without knowing, without realizing. Both are a state and when this state passed, then a person name it, try to define and describe it. The wise ones say I was in.. or I was under.., but the sufferers claim they are in.. or they do..
The essence is whether being with or not to be being with but succumb not to follow the path of expression, rather stick to self-expression, self disposition and self compassion.